Where I’m From (Revisited)
I am a cat lover
A brunette covered
Head with bright and shiny thoughts.
I am an older sister
I am a never misser
Until I do.
I am a giver
From a mom who shivers
For me so I don’t have to worry
But I do anyway.
I am attention seeking
Pretending that peeking
From behind the curtains makes me nervous
Because I think it should.
I am an open book
But only when you look
To take off the dust cover.
I like to hide
But more to seek
Because hiding results in loss
And you can only win when searching.
I am searching abroad
For the endless applause
That I pretend means nothing
Because it should
But it means everything to me.
I am a baker, not a cook
Hidden far into the nook
Of unfinished projects bluffing perfection
Because unfinished is just an
F in the end.
I am just a mess
Who happens to be best dressed
For the label of success
I am a pretender
Who can only begin
When the curtains close
And the performance really starts.
I am a redeemer
From coupon codes to
Emotions wrapped within
The chains of a murderer.
I am innocence
Born from maturity
Unknown to most
Known well to few
Fully to none.
The sun is still shining
And the rainbows still gleam
But now I know everything
Isn’t just as it seems
With the mind of a cynic
And the voice of a critic
But the heart of a swooner,
A quite tone deaf crooner
That hides her strong faith within the arms of another
But pretends that she alone, is the decider of her world
I am a closeted introvert
Hiding behind suspiciously genuine confidence
That seems out of place all of the time
Except for all those times when it doesn’t
I am the abbreviated version of myself
Like Huck Finn with no slaves.
Even in this personal space
I delete the aspects of myself
I’m not quite ready to see in the light.
I am looking for an author to write my original
I am slowly learning that they do not exist.